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Do I click send?
Will approving the headstone
for Lindsay’s grave mean she’s truly gone? Is that why it took eight proofs to
get it just right? Perfect…and yet oh, so final.
All I know is fresh,
hot tears flow down my cheeks once again, as I grieve for Lindsay, for what was
lost, for what might have been—her dreams and yes, my dreams for her.
There’s something
really wrong about having to bury your child. Sounds cliché, but there’s really
no other way to express it.
Trying to make sense of
an unexpected and tragic death from a human perspective doesn’t work. As my
husband and my mom said, Lindsay’s death is senseless. At least to us.
So we choose to trust
the One who it does make sense to. God has the master plan, and our faith tells us that He works all to our good (Romans 8:28), even something meant for evil. God has been faithful to us in so many ways
throughout our life. He wouldn’t stop now.
Even when life doesn’t
work out the way we want…Even when living without our loved one hurts to the
marrow of our bones…Even when we don’t understand the hurtful path we now find
ourselves on.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of
compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so
that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive
from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
And maybe therein lies
at least part of the answer. We’re never given trials for us alone. There is a
greater purpose. Something outside ourselves. Perhaps for others to gain some
comfort from us as they grieve their own loss.
I click send, and the
proof is forwarded to the marker company. Sometime before Christmas, the
headstone will arrive, and James, Josh, and I will make the trek to the
cemetery to see it laid at the head of Lindsay’s grave. No doubt, more tears
will flow that day.
Meanwhile, we move
forward—in time, in life, in circumstance. Though we’ve always known life
is precious and often short, Lindsay’s death altered our lives irreparably. So we
look above for comfort and cling to the knowledge that one day we’ll see Lindsay
and other loved ones again who’ve passed. And we cherish our memories of the beautiful person she was.
There’s still much to
accomplish in this life, or God would’ve already taken me, yet I long for the
day when my Savior returns, and there’ll be no more suffering and no more tears (Revelation 21:4).
Come, Lord Jesus, come…
What’s your go-to verse
for comfort in times of grief? Have you ever had a chance to help someone from
a trial you’ve been through?
If you’d like me to pray
for you and your family, please leave a comment or email me confidential
requests.
Looking above,
Laura
©Laura Hodges Poole
