In
all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your
partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of
this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until
the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians
1:4-6
I’m thrilled today to welcome my
friend and fellow Christian writer, TC Avey, as a guest blogger. She shares
about her addiction—one that most of us can relate to—and how she overcame it.
Worry and anxiety |
Late last year, I lost my
father-in-law to lung cancer. This year, my husband’s aunt is battling stage
four lung cancer. Both were life-long smokers. This has led me to pray about
addictions. There are many types, some more obvious—like smoking, drinking,
gambling, or overeating. Some are easier to hide—like pride, perfectionism,
control, possessions/lust, and greed.
I want to take you through some
truth journaling I’ve done about my own addiction. I pray it helps you identify
your addictions and begin working through them with the help of Christ (Phil.1:6).
My addiction: Worry.
My anxiety masks itself in
controlling behaviors. Feeling in control eases my fears and gives me a
semblance of power in this crazy and unpredictable world.
What do I fear?
I fear not having enough food for
my family, so when I see a “good deal,” I buy extra. Then having it neatly
organized adds to my sense of control and gives me pride in a job well done
(Matt 6:19-21).
I fear someone will unexpectedly
drop by my house, so I clean it almost daily. I can’t have them think I’m a bad
housekeeper. I must be a good steward of the possessions God has blessed me
with…so I clean, clean, clean!
I have fears I cover up by
trying to control my environment and be as perfect as I possibly can.
I fear…well, you get the picture.
Where did these fears come from?
Not from God. That’s certain
(Romans 8:15, 2 Tim 1:7).
Many of my fears came from my
childhood. My dad owned his own business, and he lived by the motto “better to
give than receive.” On more than one
occasion, that meant the homeless man on the street got my dad's last $20, while his
family had to pawn something in order to eat.
As I grew up, I let insecurities
about possessions rule my life. I realized I had this sinful habit, but it
wasn’t until I began asking God to help me understand why people have such a
hard time overcoming addictions that He revealed the true depth of my own.
Now, I know why the smoker can’t
“just quit.”
Before the smoker can stop the
addiction, they must realize why they began it. Otherwise, they will just pick
up a new addiction to help ease the underlying issue.
I thought I was in control, but
really my fears/insecurities controlled me. When God showed me where my fears stemmed
from, I began asking Him to help me view my fears through His eyes, so I could
live victoriously over them and not allow them to control me (Phil. 4:13,
Romans 6:16).
Next God showed me all the times
my family “almost” went without. Could my dad have used more discretion on
giving? Maybe. If I look with human eyes.
But when I look through the eyes
of God, I see my dad’s heart was in the right place. Our possessions aren’t
ours to keep. They’re ours to bless others with. Not only that, God is our
provider (Psalm 54:4, Matt 6:25-34).
Not once did God not
provide.
On the issue of cleaning: My mom
always kept a tidy house. So did I get a cleaning obsession from that?
No, God showed me it came from me
not wanting to be judged by others.
I allowed what others thought of
me to dictate my days. Over the years, I can count on one hand the number of
times someone “unexpectedly” stopped by. So why I possessed this irrational
desire to keep my house super clean is beyond me.
When I boiled down all these
fears and control issues, I found the real culprit: Lack of faith and trust in
God.
Ouch!
My addictions existed because I
didn’t TRUST God. I thought I had to take care of everything. I had to be
worthy in others' eyes. I justified it by saying I was being a good steward of
the things God had given me (1 John 5:21).
I never realized they held me
captive (John 8:34).
Now that I know what fuels my
worry, I’m ready to break free.
No,
in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
This doesn’t mean I’m going to
become a lousy housekeeper. No, I must be a good steward. But I do it now with
the right heart and mindset (Col 3:23). I also keep my priorities in line, and
spending time with family trumps picking up toys. I'm even getting better at
buying only what we need now, instead of purchasing ahead.
Questions for reflection:
What are your addictions?
Do you know what fuels them?
Are you ready to ask God to help
you break free?
TC
Avey is a Christian author devoted to God, family, friends, and nation. She
blogs regularly at "Wisdom of a Fool."
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise
You
Jesus, bring the rain
(MercyMe)
Prayer Requests:
Emily, who is battling
osteosarcoma, will have her three-month follow-up scans and doctor’s
appointment on Thursday. Family shares, “As always, we could use prayers and
positive thoughts on Emily’s behalf to be free of cancer and treatment
side-effects.”
Erica will have knee
surgery Wednesday (today). Please praise for her surgeons, as well as for a good
outcome.
Praise Report:
Courtney's MRI came back
clean again. Her doctor plans an MRI and a PET scan in October. If they are
clear, another chemo med will be dropped. The plan is to eventually stop all
chemo in the next six months since she has been on it continuous for two years.
Her body needs a rest.
From her Caring Bridge site:
As
you might imagine, Courtney's health and recovery is a work in progress. We
respectfully ask for continued prayer on her behalf as she fights this mighty
battle and the victories that we have and will see along the way. Hopefully we
will get good news from her endocrinologist in the coming weeks and should
anything else be amiss besides the thyroid, we will be able to begin a
treatment program to address those issues and get Courtney to feeling stronger
with less fatigue… Thank you so much for all of you who prayed special prayers
for Courtney yesterday [last Wednesday]. God certainly heard and answered yours and ours! After
seeing once again so many people yesterday at the Duke Cancer Center, we know
that God must be hearing from so many other families and their loved ones pleading
for help and healing like we have so many times. We just praise God for His
continued walk with us and the wonderful way He is carrying Courtney through
this journey.
If you have a prayer need, please
share it in the comments or e-mail me confidential requests. Would you take a
moment to pray for those who leave comments and those on the prayer list at the
top of the blog? Thanks!
God bless,
Laura
✞
©Laura Hodges Poole
the news on courtney is such a blessing!! also laura please let TC know how much i needed this article. i do not want to go into very personal things at this time but her words were not only needed but a big help. God bless you both.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Betty. I agree about Courtney! TC saw your comment and is glad the post helped. God bless you.
DeleteThank you so much for sharing my post, Laura. So glad that it spoke to Betty.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
You're welcome. I appreciate your willingness to share. God bless you.
DeleteEnjoyed this post very much, TC. I've struggled with worry too, especially with my 3-yr-old and family. Along with worry is control, wanting to control the situation or fix it or whatever. Thanks for speaking so truthfully.
ReplyDeleteThanks Dave. Worry and control go hand in hand in my life. Learning more each day to "let go and let God".
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